Yesterday we had a baby dedication at church and had Ella dedicated. It seems like so long ago that we had Juliana's dedication. It's amazing to look at these 2 beautiful girls and think about the fact that so many doctors told me they would never exist. They are truly miracles and such a blessing from God. I think about how 2 years ago I was pregnant with Ella and thinking that the baby she was in my womb was a cruel joke. I was certain I would lose her like the 2 babies I had lost before her. And I was angry that God would allow my body to conceive another child so I could go through more pain, wasn't I suffering enough. I clearly told him I was done trying why did he allow this. I had one child and for that I was so grateful. But God wasn't playing a cruel joke. Ella Grace was born into this world and all though the pregnancy wasn't exactly smooth sailing towards the end, God had given her to us to raise up. That gift is one that I pray I will never take lightly. All though I know that there will be times I will fall short and fail miserably, I know that I will spend the rest of my life trying to be the mother that God desires for me to be.